The fundamental misunderstanding of depression is the idea that the suicidal want to die. I didn't want to die. But some misfire in my brain treats existential pain like a dog reacts to vomiting: Fuck it, I'm gonna dig a hole to die in. Even on a good day, my brain will point out a few easy ways out: Take a hard left in front of that truck. It'll be over before you feel it. But when it's dark, when I'm hopeless, I'm just white-knuckling my way through the nights for no reason but instinct.
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