Friday, September 3, 2010

Why do I do this?

There is a euthanasia video on YouTube: a gray-and-white tabby cat put to sleep. I've watched it several times, never to completion, but long enough. Sometimes the pain is so strong that I can only close my eyes.

They put a catheter in his leg. The first shot made him lie very still. The next stopped his heart. I don't know why I keep going over these details. I don't know why I don't want to stop.

2 comments:

Kathy@TheFlawlessWord said...

I could never watch that. It was hard enough watching it once, in person, last month. In my dog's case, it was cruel not to do it ... for her sake. For my sake ... it will always be cruel that I did. Thinking of you and sending hugs your way.

Allison Landa said...

Thanks, and hugs right back at you.