From my Kol Nidre prayerbook

Ask not what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive. Then go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive. - Howard Thurman

Forgiveness is the courage to let go. one does not pardon another. One lets go of oneself, thus allowing pain received and sustained, hurt, inflicted and imposed, to settle, and the true Self to rise. - Talmud, Ta'anit

A ship in a harbor is safe -- but that is not what ships are for. - John A. Shedd

Who by fire and who by water?
Who by the sword and who by beast?
Who by hunger and who by thirst?
Who by earthquake and who by plague?
- Unetaneh Tokef, Proclaim the Power of this Day


It may not be an easy task to confront our feelings and actions, still more daunting to name them, perhaps most difficult to speak them. Now we will speak of and chant them together.

Let us be bold enough to see, humble enough to feel, and daring enough to turn.

- Ashamnu, Alphabet of Wrongdoing

Moses doesn't come to the burning bush by purposefully looking for a revelatory experience. He comes to the Mystery by stepping back from his personal quest and tending consciously to his sheep. - Gershon Winkler

The very least thing you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. - Barbara Kingsolver

My week in bullet points

- The dogs are insane.
- The dogs are cute.
- The dogs are insanely cute.
- I miss my cat. He deserves more than a bullet point. Or three lines. Oliver was the best soul ever and I'm still grieving. It may get better, but it will never go away.
- L'Shanah Tovah.
- I'm going to Phoenix next week. It's only going to be 103 degrees. Oh my.
- I'm thinking of the song "Sunrise, Sunset." Appropriate.

With Mr. Jack

Tonight's dinner

It's this: Curried Chickpeas and Black Beans.

Adam and I cook well together. Sometimes we talk, sometimes we don't. Often we laugh. It's a good appetizer.

Labor Day Weekend: North Coast

Why do I do this?

There is a euthanasia video on YouTube: a gray-and-white tabby cat put to sleep. I've watched it several times, never to completion, but long enough. Sometimes the pain is so strong that I can only close my eyes.

They put a catheter in his leg. The first shot made him lie very still. The next stopped his heart. I don't know why I keep going over these details. I don't know why I don't want to stop.

No words

No words for how it feels to pick up your tabby cat's ashes, to ride home in the car with him so silently. This link says it all.