Wrote this to a friend today

I just miss him so much ... it is impossible that he is gone. You wouldn't believe the spaces in this place that are empty as a result of his loss. Chairs, the couch, the bed, corners ... all of it waiting for a sweet soul who will never come back. It is unfathomable that I will never hold him again, never brush him, never get swiped at by him (!), never feed him while chattering to him ("You like this stuff, huh? Oh yeah you do ...") Still I cannot say enough what it was to have him, and to share him with Adam, who treated him like gold.