Tuesday, July 14, 2015

MILF Valley

Today was going to be Angel Island Day. I was really looking forward to it. Then Adam said to me: "Um ... maybe it's not the day." That's because I've been having trouble eating and keeping down anything I am able to eat. He was worried about my hiking alone and being a ferry ride away from medical help if necessary.

So instead I went up to Mill Valley and am going to go to Muir Woods at his suggestion. I cried on the way up, frustrated that my original plans hadn't come to fruition because I'm vulnerable, angry at the vulnerability. KFOG's 10 at 10 came on and the year was 1997. I pictured myself running toward that impetuous 24-year-old who I once was, arms outstretched, greeting her.

It ain't always easy.

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