Guys always say girls love jerks. Sometimes
they’re wrong, but sometimes they’re just dead-on right. And why? Well, first
of all, it’s just not girls. Everyone loves a challenge. And jerks are just
that: a challenge. You think you’ve pegged them and then they slip out of your
grasp. You think that just because they dictate your feelings that they’re
going to give a damn about them.
Think again.
“Fine,” he says. “You look like a little lost
puppy. And they don’t let dogs on public transit.”
There are so, so many ways I could take that. Maybe he’s calling me ugly. Maybe
he’s calling me a bitch. Maybe he’s calling me an animal, and it wouldn’t be
the first time someone tried that.
“Well,” I say, “thanks.”
I don’t mean to sound sincere. I want my voice
to be cutting, sarcastic, all those ugly feelings that cut the side of your
tongue when you experience them. Instead I sound grateful and for an instant I
simply hate myself for being a –
A –
“Puppy,” he says. “It’s cute, Meredith.
Really.”
Okay, class, what do we know about puppies? They
squawk. They nip. They cry. And they need, need, need.
“Get your damn clothes on,” I say, “and let’s
go.”
He looks surprised. I barely hold back a grin.
Looks like this pup has a little bit of bite to go with her bark. Just try
whacking me on the nose with some newspaper. I double-dare you.
When he wanders to the bathroom to change –
because apparently now he’s shy – I
grab my phone and text Paul.
OF COURSE, the response comes near-instantly.
SOLANA BEACH? I’LL JUST CHECK THE ARRIVAL TIMES WHEN IT GETS CLOSER. SEE YOU
THERE …
Is this what it’s like to have someone who
gives a damn? It feels simple, almost too easy. Almost like I should be working
harder for this. Like love is a treat dangled before your nose, so close you
could smell it, taste it, but not close enough for it to feed you.
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